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My subject is If you have children, is there a point in which you felt you made a mistake? If so, what is it and what would you have done to change it? If you don't have children, do you think your parents made a mistake? How would you fix it? It was submitted by http://www.100lbCountdown.com Here goes.....and bear with me....due to an accidental meeting between my laptop and a cup of soda, half of my keyboard doesn't work & I'm alternating between the keyboard & the onscreen one.
This is gonna be a hard post to write, because I HAVE been there before. And it was not fun.
Before I got married, I was a single mother of twins. I had been since they were 5 months old. It was hard, I wasn't getting child support, and I was working as best as I could, while paying for day care. I was barely making ends meet.
Okay, I WASN'T making ends meet.
I had a hard time figuring things out and at one point, I considered giving them to their paternal grandparents. I LOVE MY KIDS....more than life itself. But I felt like I wasn't doing them justice. We were struggling........I was struggling.....and they were suffering. They, of course, was none the wiser. They were only 2ish at the time. ME, though....I knew. I knew that I wasn't giving them the absolute best life I could.
BUT I DIDN'T GIVE UP!
Not even when I lost my job. I thought long and hard and decided to move. I'd gotten laid off in September and survived on unemployment until November, when I started working part time at Sam's Club. It wasn't as much as I was making, but I was living with my mom and didn't have a ton of bills. I worked around everyone's schedule to avoid daycare, so I saved money that way, plus Anastasia was potty trained, so I didn't have to buy as much diapers.
In January , my dad got a severance package from the company he was working for that closed and he offered to fly the kids and I to KY. As much as I hated leaving my mom, I knew it would give me a chance to give the kids a better life. So I agreed and on January 10, we boarded a plane and flew to Dayton, OH. I got a job and by April, we were in our own apartment. In August, I met Matthew and we married in September.......the rest is history!
I am thankful I didn't give them to their paternal grandparents.....I think I've managed to pull us up and give them a great life. And rather than look at that time and regret it, I look at it as a test I overcame. Because of that time, I realized my strength, my will to fight back.