He and I met a year or so before you and he did. We met at a cafe', set up by mutual friends of ours, We hit it off right away and I knew, from the moment I looked into his eyes, I was going to marry him. At that time, I believed he was absolutely in love with me.
That all changed on that faithful night at the bar.
I was sitting at the table next to you. I saw the moment I lost him. I practically heard the pop of electricity pass between you both. Looking back, I can't remember how it all transpired, I just remember that some how, as a result of that night, you, he and I became "best friends"....rather you and he became secret lovers and I became the third wheel. But I loved him, so I was able to force myself to live with it.
I thought that when you'd met and married your husband, things would change, but they didn't. I realize now that you were just playing the part of a 20 something year old woman, dutifully getting married. Oh how I wished that you and he would no longer carry on this romance. Now I realize that you were his splash of color in his beige world with me.
When you announced your pregnancy, I was confident that things would change then. Surely you wouldn't cheat on your husband, the father of your child. The day you went to the hospital to have your son, I went to your house and cleaned it up for you, making sure it was pristine for you and the baby...my peace offering.
Then I saw your son and my heart shattered. If you were to put a baby picture of my husband next to your son, they could be twins. You'd given him what I never could.....a child. My infertility prevented us from having a family, but you....you were once again perfect and providing for him where I couldn't be.
The day he died, I turned to you for comfort because I knew you would know how I felt. We both lost our heart that day. I watched as my stepson cried over the loss of his "Uncle". Together, you and I picked out his suit, pulling it from the hanger for his funeral, both of us sliding something into the pocket.
After he passed, you and I became a colder version of friends. We were only friends on the surface. I was there when my stepson got married.
I was there when you passed away.
I saw the aftermath of you handing out your confessions to your husband and son. I played the part of anger widow very well. Of course, they were devastated.
I'd know about it for so long I'd grown to accept it.
I hope you are together, where ever you are. Know that I'm not angry. Not anymore. Because I can die knowing I gave our married my all and stayed faithful.
Pity neither of you could do the same.
Today’s post is a writing challenge. This is how it works: participating bloggers picked 4 – 6 words or short phrases for someone else to craft into a post. All words must be used at least once and all the posts will be unique as each writer has received their own set of words. That’s the challenge, here’s a fun twist; no one who’s participating knows who got their words and in what direction the writer will take them. Until now.
At the end of this post you’ll find links to the other blogs featuring this challenge. Check them all out, see what words they got and how they used them.
I received the words: Force ~ Hanger ~ Pristine ~ Beige ~ Pop
They were submitted by Julie from The Bergham's Life Chronicles
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